Constantly seacrhin my brain dictionary to find a word, in order to find a perfect word to describe my feelings. Sum1 help me out pls, gimme a word which describes tis feeling. Nt sad, nt angry, nvr happy... Been feelin tis for da past 2days... Sumhow I can feel tat she's changin into sumtin else or nvr changed at all....
Whenever u wanna go sumwhere, u will alwys tell me or ask my permission to do so.. I wud allow u to go n hv ur freedom. I nvr restricted ur boundaries... I alwys trusted u bt jz 2days ago, it changed.. For sum reason, u din reply my sms or answer any of my calls. Wen u hv no credit, u'll tell me. Or wen u fin work, u alwys msn me. Bt wat changed? Where were u? Wat were u doin? Don u und tat sumtimes I wud worry or disappointed cz ur jz da same as 6mths ago? U nvr bothered tellin me or anytin.
It came down to 2assumptions. 1) U were wit ur ex, doin God noes wat or 2) U n ur screwed up family got probs n ur takin u stress out on me. If its 1, its fine, as it gives me a gud enuf reason to pursue sum1 I like. If its 2, Im more pissed. U jz cant get it into ur head don u? I told u bfore tat I hate it wen u tk ur stress out on me... I aso stress bt do u c me screwin da ppl I love or my frens?
Sumhow Im nt dat sad, or mayb tis is da end alrdy.. Wen my grandma prayed for me, God said a few interestin things bout me. 1) Gud in studyin, 2) Fateful wit woman n finally 3) Gonna hv 2 wives. Mayb I shud jz sit n wait for my 2 wives